Some new (old) things
-I’m re-banning myself from buying shoes. It didn’t work the first two times; third is the charm, right? Also, I have a wedding to pay for.
-I have been re-watching The X Files because I realized when I saw the new movie how far from the series I had gotten. I used to know everything X Files inside and out, so I’m re-capturing that.
-I missed Otakon because I’m poor, and I couldn’t afford to go, much less take off from precious few hours of work to go. This absolutely sucked.
-Since I missed the con, I have been completely swept up by the desire to cosplay just for fun (which I never used to do; it was always for a con) I’m doing Meimi Haneoka from Saint Tail and her alter ego, Saint Tail. 
-I think I have finally managed to chill out a little bit. 
-I had a job interview for an instrumental teaching position and a general music position (part time).
-I’m going to become a volunteer at PAWS and help little kitties and other animals that have no where to go.
-I’ve been eating healthier foods. Been buying more fruits and veggies and cutting back on the tons of ice cream I used to down every day.
- Overall, realizing that employment of some sort is fast approaching and I won’t just be useless and miserable is making me a much happier person.
Getting over myself…
When school ended and everyone was already working on resumes and getting letters of recommendation and all that, I shrugged my shoulders and said flatly, “I don’t wanna teach anymore.”
To a few of my horrified friends I explained that no amount of flattery or encouragement will get me to change my mind; I was soured by my second student teaching placement, I am in desperate need of a break, and I seriously doubt my abilities as an educator…so leave me alone until I personally feel better. Because until then, as the four year old’s defense goes, “You can’t make me.”
So far I haven’t even gotten a full time summer job. I mean, I babysit, I work at DSW, I still sew for people on occassion, I list stuff on ebay, I’m not JOBLESS per sey, but I’m sitting here at 11am on a weekday doing nothing when I could be making money. Three of my sisters have been hired for full time, contracted teaching positions. Last night my friend Vic told me he got hired in the district I went through as a kid. He started looking for jobs FOR me and then convinced me to get on PAREAP which is how teachers find jobs in PA and how jobs find teachers.
I finally filled out the agonizingly long application and clicked “I’m interested” in one or two jobs. I have no idea what will come of all this; I’ll probably still be subbing in the fall…but at least I’m on there and sort of looking now. I also am thinking seriously about playing my clarinet again. I haven’t touched it since my ill-fated jury that ruined my gpa for the semester.
So, I guess I’m finally getting over it and moving on, musically and job-wise.
